I'm sorry love

Recently i harmed myself and i feel like i have alienated my carebear's family, i realized i feel so bad i just did something wrong that i used to do from my childhood, i have tried to repress the depressive feelings and a few days ago i cut myself, i was so scared. i told carebear i didn't want to be with her, but it was not rationally thought out. i love my carebear and do not want to leave her side ever she is an amazing person. i love her, and i hope she will take my apology... I LOVE you carebear